Jag fick prova att åka motorcykel härom veckan. Jag körde inte ens, bara åkte med. Allt jag kände var ångest. En orimlig skräck som fick katastroftankarna att avlösa varandra. Tänk om jag dör nu. Jag är så jävla dum i huvudet som frivilligt gör det här. Tänk vad mycket viktigt…
Tag: Reality
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What quitting Facebook did to my FOMO
I stopped logging into Facebook about half a year ago. My partner suggested I’d leave off for a couple of weeks when I complained about feeling stressed. I gave it a go, in face of the fear of missing out. I was afraid my friends would forget about me if…
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My not-to-do-list
I swear I had a profound idea for a blog post the other day. I remember standing by the kitchen sink as it hit me, and I thought that this is too interesting to forget, so I won’t bother writing it down. Naturally, the idea has now escaped me. Drained…
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Good news
The year is going fantastic so far. My arm is healing excruciatingly slowly and plans keep getting cancelled, but whatever. Suddenly I have a new job! I will essentially be overseeing the production of audiobooks, in the capacity of someone who knows science. State-produced media for the hard-of-sight and dyslexic.…
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2021
Time to sum up the year, I suppose. I’ll be ending it on a pitiful note: sick with Covid-19 and with my broken arm not yet healed. Thankfully, though, I am fully vaccinated and the symtoms so far are not worse than a bad cold. And I’m living in a…
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Like a van in the dark
That challenge worked out pretty well. I didn’t complete the entire thing, but it definitely got a creative spark going, which was the intent after all. I had fun and learned things about endangered animals, at least. But then life happened. Hit me like a van in the dark. Literally,…
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A new job
Hi readers! I haven’t forgotten you, I promise, I’ve just been really busy this past month. Suddenly I have a job again! Kitchen duty and cleaning at the hospital. The newness of it all is overwhelming in itself, then add to that occasional odd hours and my inner critic going…
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This summer, summed up
First summer in ten years or so with no mountains whatsoever. Despite that, it’s been a really good one. I don’t know if I’ve ever felt so content. Just feeling comfortable in my own body, for starters. Turns out that’s a good prerequisite for enjoying the heat. Yes, even the…
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Triumph, at last!
I made it! At long last, I got my motorcycle driver’s licence! It took a lot of time, a lot of money, a lot of help and a lot of sweat and tears (though no blood, thankfully). It’s been more than a week since I nailed the test, and despite…
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Deserving to live
Here I was bracing for yet another indefinite period of pain and uncertainty. Exhausted and anxiety-ridden, for the first time I seriously considered actually accepting my doctor’s offer of happy-pills (or mood stabilisers or whatever… I’ve always been terrified of the stuff). Not as a permanent solution, but to…